Time flies by faster and faster the older I get, but I’ve heard that should be expected. The year of 2011 has proved to be full of ups, downs & changes- but all in all, I am humbled by everything the Lord continues to bless me with…
A few lessons I learned (or was reminded of) in the year 2011
- Chocolate milkshakes go with any meal
- City lights are fun, but country nights are unbeatable
- Only edible things are best sugar coated (tell me how it really is, please)
- Cherish the ones you love- I lost my Aunt Janene this year, what a blessing to have her as a part of our family. Missing her always.
- There really are still good guys out there- almost 3 years with my cowboy & still going strong- I love him to pieces
- Growing older does not necessarily mean growing “out” of my awkward/clumsy stage. What I wouldn’t give to be a lil more graceful!
I’m so blessed and thankful to be blessed with so much!
J.M. Barrie
(Source: onedirection-seducedme, via texascowgirl)
(Source: jamieniicole, via withhold-judgment)
You’re my whole life; my best friend. I need you more than anyone else. No matter what I say or do, don’t get that confused. Sometimes I need more than it’s healthy to expect, because so many people have given me so much less than I deserve.
(Source: sweeeeet-summertime, via countrygirlbythegraceofgod)
Peter Pan quote
It’s been awhile, but then again, that’s the norm for me anymore. It’s important to think things through, I’m sure of it, though I’m not sure it’s important to think things through to the point of over analyzing even the most simple of situations. I have always struggled with adjusting to change, all types—even change for the better. I think change doesn’t set well with me because it is blatant proof of how quickly life flows by. One of my favorite quotes from high school days states, “Day by day, everything seems the same & then all of the sudden, everything is different.” That’s such a great explanation of how life goes.
Things are changing so quickly I seem to be loosing sight of what used to be, of what I used to be. I assume I could account this to merely growing up, but I refuse to forget what I have been through to get where I am today. Yes, times change and I change, but the people and events of my past are still important to me. I don’t know, I seem to be caught somewhere in between of “what was” and “what is.” Geeze, does that even make sense?
I need to go on a vacation for a few days. I think it would do me good to get away for awhile and evaluate my stream of mind. It can’t be normal as I don’t see others posting about the same thing months apart. The thoughts are lingering and its time they be free.
Sometimes the words just flow out like a fountain and the only way to stop them is to write them down. Life has treated me so well lately, I can’t complain even slighty. I’m in love with life right now, is that normal? :) I hope so.
I’m sorry, but it’s over
It ended and years have gone by
I didn’t try to hurt you
But it happened and you cried
If you think I don’t feel awful
That’s fine, I won’t try to explain
But I see you look so sad and lost
I never meant to cause you pain
People change and feelings change
It happens all the time
Prepare yourself, you’ll love again
A heart that’s bigger than mine
I’m sorry but it’s over
It was beyond time for things to end
I realized I didn’t love you
Did you really want me to pretend?
Love can do some crazy things
And make you see things unclear
I know that if you’d stop and think
You’d see your feelings aren’t sincere
You are caught up the past of us
Open those brown eyes and see
A new life waiting up ahead for you
That doesn’t depend on “you and me”
I’m sorry but it’s over
It’s time to recollect your pride
I’ve long ago moved on
Now, it’s your turn this time
I’m sorry, but it’s really over now
My heart has found a new love that’s true
Please move on and find yourself
And invest your love in someone new
…I’m sorry
… and thinking always seems to get me into trouble. But I can’t help it, I refuse to keep my thoughts caged inside any longer. It is hard to understand why things happen. I will be the first to admit this past week has been a true test of my personal Faith. “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1). I suppose you can have faith in most anything, but personally, I hold my Faith in the Lord God Almighty. Does having Faith and being Faithful mean I cannot question the motives behind the very being of whom I have faith in? (Here come the questions…) Why does God put people in our lives, great and important people, only then to take them away entirely too early? Two friends of mine lost their younger brother last week, and although I cannot and will not say I understand what they are going through, their loss has brought up some feelings I have suppressed for some time now. In talking with one of my friends, he said he was ready for the visitation and funeral to be over so things could go back to “normal” or whatever was left of “normal.” In my experience with loss, I will admit that the visitation and funeral seem to always weigh heavily on my heart. But the services mark the beginning of the end of phone calls and cards. No, the services haven’t broken me- it’s the silence afterwards. It goes from being everyone’s concern to my problem and my problem only. Everyone will move on with their lives (as they should, please don’t get me wrong). “Normal” for me does not exist anymore, nor will it ever exist as it was before ever again…
Anyway, I shouldn’t be writing in such a sad tone before bedtime but I felt compelled to get a few things written down. It’s so difficult to stay focused on the positives that God promises through Faith and perseverance. My wise grandmother has always told me that God will not put us through anything we cannot handle. Although I do not always believe that what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger, I do, without a shadow of a doubt believe that it CAN make you stronger. I have always been an over thinker- I’ve grown from being sad, to angry, to complacent, to somewhat peaceful. God holds me in the palm of His had and He will lead me down the road to find my strength. <3
I want a dwarf goat so badly!
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